A little nervous

Well, have you ever had a time where you were very excited about something but then something bad happened to someone and you were sad for them and it made it really hard to be happy for yourself? To make a long story short, we are thrilled about Jennifer being pregnant but someone really close to Jennifer was pregnant as well and they were both happy to share being pregnant with each other. Well, today we found out that Jennifer's pregnancy pal lost her baby.

So, as happy as I am, I am really nervous. I have read a lot about the chances of something happening being as high as 25% or as low as 10%, but I guess those numbers just seem a little crazy until you know someone that it happens to. I am trying to now be nervous and trying to truly believe that everything will be fine, however sometimes that is easier said than done.

The best advice I have been given about being nervous came from a good friend and was really simple yet really profound at the same time. My friend (his wife is expecting twins) said "Ya know, at some point we just have to let God be in control and realize that as much as we - as people - want to be in control, God is in control and in the end he has our babies best interest in mind."

My goal from now on is to try and let myself let God be in control. I know he is in control even if I think I am - but its all a mindset that I have to have to know (not think) that God is in control and everything will work out in the end.

All that being said - 6 weeks down, 34 to go.